Polly Freeman Niwoths

I've been working a new job doing some commercial roof repair in Bergen County NJ for a few weeks now and I've come to realize that construction is a lot harder than I had thought it would turn out to be. I haven't been stable, employment wise, for a while now. From job to job I've bounced hoping to find something that I might enjoy while earning enough to make end's meet. Having not finished college I've noticed that it's becoming more and more difficult for me to find a job which is no doubt related to the fact that I'm growing older.

I always knew that something like this day would come. Growing up I hated school. Absolutely loathed it. I can't even pinpoint exactly what it was that lead me to dislike school so much even though I enjoyed learning. I loved reading. I loved the Discovery Channel back when it was actually a channel that was devoted to science, history and nature. Learning was a big part of my life but for some reason the idea of going to school was a huge hassle. I disliked being told what to do and the very notion of homework was repulsive.

I should have gone to college. I still could, I suppose, but is the time and financial investment going to be worth it? Will I be able to stand on my own two feet? I have a feeling that should I go to school I might end up spending more time than I necessary trying to attain a degree that may not help me. Then again, I could get a degree that would be able to help me financially but then I would also be in debt due to the loans that I would be forced to take out to afford school.